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1) The adorable new dog, Adverb, is learning to get along with Zabina, and vice versa. I cannot say the same for Peejee, who is spending a great deal of time outside or huddled angrily in the bathroom now that we've closed off the closet she was hiding in. He is an enthusiastic, affectionate dog who sits on my pillow and stares out the window while making a teakettle sound the entire time I am out.
He will learn to cope eventually.
2) Classes are hard. Like. Really, really hard. I kinda knew they would be, but still.
3) I am making no progress whatsoever on grad school apps, to the point that just thinking about it makes me feel miserable, so I am coping with this by not thinking about it, which leads to nothing getting done.
This is not a useful long-term solution.
4) Gosh we've had a lot of things repaired lately. Maybe at some point things will stop breaking. That would be nice.
5) I am grateful for a spouse who brings me food and caffeine when I am low, and a housemate who helps me do a complete clean of the fridge when I am appalled at what it has become.
6) It is interesting to me, in the midst of the latest vitriolic round of whiny man-children doing their damnedest to drive women away from gaming, to see how many casual and F2P games have quietly and without fanfare decided that, hey, people who aren't straight white dudes play games too, let's get in on some of that cash. I am no big proponent of the Invisible Hand nonsense, but it turns out that sometimes you get inclusivity just because it sells.
The absurd little flash game about selling swords and potions to adventurers in my cute little shop has better racial and gender diversity than most console games I've bought in the last...several years. Not as a thing. It's just there.
7) Sometimes I get very tired of having to think about -isms. I feel guilty about that when they're the ones that don't apply to me, for lo, not having to think about them is pretty much the baseline of privilege, but I feel even more tired when I don't want to think about the ones that do apply to me. Sometimes I am so done with thinking about feminism for a while.
The world is full of people who, whether from ignorance or nastiness or unexamined assumptions or wanting to keep their position on top or to suck up to the people who are on top, are fairly horrible on gender issues. (And god knows I have some ingrained problems there too.) Sometimes I don't want to fight them. Sometimes I just want to go do something else in another place where they aren't hanging out.
8) I'm really not sure I'm ready for grad school. All the first year grad students in my Greek 365/385 class seem so amazingly more on top of things than I am. I don't mind feeling less competent than the grad students who have been such for years--they're supposed to be ahead of me!--but shouldn't I be as good as the first year ones, if I'm applying to become one? Isn't that what I'm trying to prove to the selection committee?
9) This is depressing to think about. And I've been cranky at unreasonable things today because I am morose, which makes me over-sensitive. I will go do homework now instead.
He will learn to cope eventually.
2) Classes are hard. Like. Really, really hard. I kinda knew they would be, but still.
3) I am making no progress whatsoever on grad school apps, to the point that just thinking about it makes me feel miserable, so I am coping with this by not thinking about it, which leads to nothing getting done.
This is not a useful long-term solution.
4) Gosh we've had a lot of things repaired lately. Maybe at some point things will stop breaking. That would be nice.
5) I am grateful for a spouse who brings me food and caffeine when I am low, and a housemate who helps me do a complete clean of the fridge when I am appalled at what it has become.
6) It is interesting to me, in the midst of the latest vitriolic round of whiny man-children doing their damnedest to drive women away from gaming, to see how many casual and F2P games have quietly and without fanfare decided that, hey, people who aren't straight white dudes play games too, let's get in on some of that cash. I am no big proponent of the Invisible Hand nonsense, but it turns out that sometimes you get inclusivity just because it sells.
The absurd little flash game about selling swords and potions to adventurers in my cute little shop has better racial and gender diversity than most console games I've bought in the last...several years. Not as a thing. It's just there.
7) Sometimes I get very tired of having to think about -isms. I feel guilty about that when they're the ones that don't apply to me, for lo, not having to think about them is pretty much the baseline of privilege, but I feel even more tired when I don't want to think about the ones that do apply to me. Sometimes I am so done with thinking about feminism for a while.
The world is full of people who, whether from ignorance or nastiness or unexamined assumptions or wanting to keep their position on top or to suck up to the people who are on top, are fairly horrible on gender issues. (And god knows I have some ingrained problems there too.) Sometimes I don't want to fight them. Sometimes I just want to go do something else in another place where they aren't hanging out.
8) I'm really not sure I'm ready for grad school. All the first year grad students in my Greek 365/385 class seem so amazingly more on top of things than I am. I don't mind feeling less competent than the grad students who have been such for years--they're supposed to be ahead of me!--but shouldn't I be as good as the first year ones, if I'm applying to become one? Isn't that what I'm trying to prove to the selection committee?
9) This is depressing to think about. And I've been cranky at unreasonable things today because I am morose, which makes me over-sensitive. I will go do homework now instead.