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I am so very tired.
The instructor is deeply sympathetic, but it's not like he's going to slow down. He drew a helpful diagram on the board about the sort of learning curve we're doing in this summer course, and it is made of doom and terror. But that's the way it goes: you take summer Greek, that means summer Greek is your life. All summer long. But, my goodness, I'm really not used to it being 1:30pm on a Tuesday afternoon and already thinking about how very long the week has been and how little time I have left for my homework today...
It's killed my writing, which was not unexpected, but a little disappointing. If I have the energy to write, that's energy I pretty much need to go spend on studying. If I don't have the energy to write, it doesn't matter how much I want to, it's just not going to happen. Ah well. There are all of two people waiting breathlessly for my next chapter to get finished, I think, and they are both used to these sorts of delays.
I'm not really getting much reading done, either; I'm going through Nerd Do Well at the rate of about one chapter every other day, I keep returning library books unread when I get to the library at all, and even my old comfort reads feel...well, it feels like they'd be great to reread, but then when would I get my studying in, huh?
This sounds whinier than I really intend it to be. The instructor is great; my classmate is friendly (we're going climbing together Thursday!); the material is interesting; it's nice to have an actual challenge in class; this will save me a great deal of time and money by getting the first year out of the way this summer. All in all, it's good things all around.
But I'm a bit tired of being always, always tired, to the point that spending two hours in the coffee shop just staring blankly at my laptop screen is my big luxury use of time for the day. And it seems like no matter how much I study, or how I study, I don't have it all down.
(It is perhaps unreasonable to expect myself to get 100% grasp of all the material presented so far. Today was the 12th day of actual class, and we just covered chapter 19. That's a hell of a lot of material. But I still find myself disappointed every time I can't do it all perfectly. Ah well.)
The instructor is deeply sympathetic, but it's not like he's going to slow down. He drew a helpful diagram on the board about the sort of learning curve we're doing in this summer course, and it is made of doom and terror. But that's the way it goes: you take summer Greek, that means summer Greek is your life. All summer long. But, my goodness, I'm really not used to it being 1:30pm on a Tuesday afternoon and already thinking about how very long the week has been and how little time I have left for my homework today...
It's killed my writing, which was not unexpected, but a little disappointing. If I have the energy to write, that's energy I pretty much need to go spend on studying. If I don't have the energy to write, it doesn't matter how much I want to, it's just not going to happen. Ah well. There are all of two people waiting breathlessly for my next chapter to get finished, I think, and they are both used to these sorts of delays.
I'm not really getting much reading done, either; I'm going through Nerd Do Well at the rate of about one chapter every other day, I keep returning library books unread when I get to the library at all, and even my old comfort reads feel...well, it feels like they'd be great to reread, but then when would I get my studying in, huh?
This sounds whinier than I really intend it to be. The instructor is great; my classmate is friendly (we're going climbing together Thursday!); the material is interesting; it's nice to have an actual challenge in class; this will save me a great deal of time and money by getting the first year out of the way this summer. All in all, it's good things all around.
But I'm a bit tired of being always, always tired, to the point that spending two hours in the coffee shop just staring blankly at my laptop screen is my big luxury use of time for the day. And it seems like no matter how much I study, or how I study, I don't have it all down.
(It is perhaps unreasonable to expect myself to get 100% grasp of all the material presented so far. Today was the 12th day of actual class, and we just covered chapter 19. That's a hell of a lot of material. But I still find myself disappointed every time I can't do it all perfectly. Ah well.)