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Today I am trying to convince myself that it's okay if I'm not getting better at some things.
I mean, not academics. I generally feel like I'm improving there, even if slowly. Herodotus is easier because I read Euripides, even if the dialects and styles are completely different. (The subject matter's mostly different, but really, trustworthiness and suffering and oracles still come up a lot.) Plautus isn't as hard as he would be otherwise because of Cicero and Ovid. I'm getting better slowly, but I'm clearly getting better.
Meanwhile, my weekly session of yoga at the climbing gym is as difficult as it ever was, or maybe more so. I'm better at climbing than I was when I first started, but my bouldering is actually worse than it was at the peak when I could climb three times every week, and I'm not really sure that my top-rope work is improving noticeably. I go every week, or twice a week, and...I'm not getting better at it.
And I think that's okay. "Not getting better" doesn't mean "not worth doing." It's good for my health even if my skill bar isn't moving one jot to the right.
Bit frustrating, though.
I mean, not academics. I generally feel like I'm improving there, even if slowly. Herodotus is easier because I read Euripides, even if the dialects and styles are completely different. (The subject matter's mostly different, but really, trustworthiness and suffering and oracles still come up a lot.) Plautus isn't as hard as he would be otherwise because of Cicero and Ovid. I'm getting better slowly, but I'm clearly getting better.
Meanwhile, my weekly session of yoga at the climbing gym is as difficult as it ever was, or maybe more so. I'm better at climbing than I was when I first started, but my bouldering is actually worse than it was at the peak when I could climb three times every week, and I'm not really sure that my top-rope work is improving noticeably. I go every week, or twice a week, and...I'm not getting better at it.
And I think that's okay. "Not getting better" doesn't mean "not worth doing." It's good for my health even if my skill bar isn't moving one jot to the right.
Bit frustrating, though.
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I don't mean to sound grim, but I think it's true. (Sports call these 'plateaus.') I was hauled out to practice throwing a ball all the time as a kid to "fix whatever it is you're doing wrong." It never worked. In the end I figured out that my elbows (and likely shoulders) hyperextend, and so I suspect that I Cannot throw like other people. Just not in my cards, however many hours I was forced to "just try to improve."
So instead I worked hard at what I Could do (soccer in my case). Surely there is something active that you can improve at? There's no sense in battering your self-confidence if you've hit a plateau- move on, try something new?
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I don't really look forward to seeing how much I suck when I eventually go back.
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